Kickboxing and boxing helped Ellie Goulding reduce anxiety as well as overcome the panic attacks.
Pop star Ellie Goulding reveals her story of dealing with the issues of mental strength when her career started taking off in 2010. British songstress opened up in the exclusive at Well+Good on Monday.
For over seven years the “On My Mind” singer has been gathering the massive crowds. Outside the stage or studio, she collaborates with the brands such as Nike and Core Hydrtation. Last March she has also appeared in Pantene ad showing off her boxing skills. The latter are the ones she thanks for helping her fighting the anxiety she had been dealing with along the way.
Working for years and following the dream of sharing her music with the world, Goulding says she was thrilled. In addition, her life has completed changed. However it was not exactly how it might have seemed.
“It was a lot all at once,” she says. “Suddenly, I was living alone in London and everything was happening so fast.”
“I started having panic attacks, and the scariest part was it could be triggered by anything. I used to cover my face with a pillow whenever I had to walk outside from the car to the studio. My new life as a pop star certainly wasn’t as glamorous as all my friends from home thought. Secretly, I was really struggling physically and emotionally.”
Self-confidence was one of the biggest matters Ellie Goulding had to face.
“I think part of what sparked my panic attacks was not feeling confident enough to believe in myself – I was scared I wasn’t as good of a singer as everyone thought I was. And as the stakes grew, I was afraid of letting everyone, including myself, down.”
She gives the 2016 Grammy Awards event as an example. She was asked to perform which she describes as a “massive honor but…”.
“As you can imagine, pretty nerve-wracking. In the moments before I walked on that stage, I gave myself a good talking-to. I was annoyed for being paralyzed with nerves every time I was about to perform on television. I told myself that this was exactly where I was supposed to be and if other people believed in me, I had to start believing in myself.”
Believe is a very powerful feeling. The star has looked even deeper and topped it up.
“There was another way I found inner confidence: boxing and kickboxing.”
“I love that extra kick of adrenaline. Keeping fit doesn’t mean spending hours at a gym; the key is to find a workout you really love.”
“I find gyms mostly male-dominated, so I prefer classes, like at Barry’s Bootcamp or Equilibrium TrX. The more I started doing classes and also working out with my trainer, Faisal Abdalla, the better I felt about myself.”
“And it wasn’t about any change in my outward appearance; it was about seeing and feeling myself get better and stronger. It carried over into other areas of my life, and now I truly feel that exercise-however you like to work out-is good for the soul.”
“I still feel nervous before performing, or have pangs of anxiety from time to time, but it’s not crippling like it used to be. It took time, but I’ve accepted that everyone feels nervous before they perform-it’s not just me. And now that I believe in myself more, that confidence comes through, whether I’m working out, singing onstage, or just hanging out by myself at home.”